Thursday, June 10, 2010

It's been long enough

So I think that it's been long enough that maybe no one will notice that I haven't been sugar free.  My reader(that would be me) will forgive me, I just know it! 

Now I have a new challenge.  Become sugar free, again and do that while I am pregnant and my body thinks it wants Snicker's Ice Cream Bars.  Have you had those?  OMG!  If not, go out and buy one right now and then start your quest for a sugarless life tomorrow!  Although after eating one, you probably won't want to live sugar free.

Hard choices.  Until next time!

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Day What?

Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.  I think that just about covers it.  I am trying to be good, but it's just so hard.  Why is it that I don't get to have any fun?  I don't drink, smoke, do drugs.  I'm not promiscuous.  My biggest vice is my sweet tooth and I can't even indulge in that without some nasty consequences.  It just doesn't seem right.  What about you?  What vices do you have that you indulge in, but know you really shouldn't?  It's okay, I won't tell.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Day 40

Sunday March 28, 2010

Don't worry I didn't fall off the face of the planet.  I've just been avoiding you.  That's right, you read me!  I have been AVOIDING you because I have been having sugar ever since that last entry.  Not in large quantities, but enough to say, I had sugar.

When I started this blog I thought, gee, maybe it might even be like the movie "Julie & Julia".  Maybe I'll get a lot of followers and everyone will read my blog and they will all think I'm funny and maybe even think, "That is so how I am."  Note to self: "Take off rose colored glasses BEFORE beginning a new project."  I have come to find out that I am really not funny and not many people read this blog.  That's kinda sad.  However, I will NOT stop writing it!  I have developed this complex over my inability to finish anything I start, with a few exceptions.  I committed to keep up this blog for a year and I will stick to it.

As far as not having sugar goes, I am starting over and will recommit myself to a life without sugar.  Go me!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Day 26

Monday March 15, 2010

I wish I could say that my sugar record is spotless, but alas tis not true.  I had a cookie and a small brownie last night.  I have been at my mom's for the past few days.  Although they do not eat sugary treats often and to the extreme, it is still in her house, which makes it hard for me to resist.  Satan, my sister Heidi, made double chocolate brownies and added white chocolate chips.  Sinner. 
Satan: "Do you want to lick the spoon? 
Me: "No. Get thee hence Satan!"
Satan: "Do you want a brownie?"
Me: "no?" (I feel my resolve wavering.)
Satan: "Okay." (insert evil laugh)
I continue reading in the living room and the smell of chocolatey goodness floats in through the kitchen filling my nostrils and making my mouth water.  The brownies had that "done smell" and when I looked at them, I knew they were done.  I knew that I had to tell Satan the brownies were finished, because she made them for a friend.  She took the brownies out and I could stand it no longer.  I took a little square and ate it!  It was a small corner square.  The edges were slightly chewy with the center being warm and melty!  Ooooo!

I'm weak.  I'm a sinner!  Father forgive me, for I know not what I do!

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Day 21

Wednesday March 10, 2010

If there ever was a day to eat something sugary, it was today.  I taught a 3rd grade class today with 32 kids!  That's right, 32!  They weren't horrible, but they weren't great.  The regular teacher of that class was unorganized  and did not have the materials I needed for most of what I was doing and had so much down time during the day that I had to make a lot of stuff up as I went along.  Well I made it through the day and after the kids left I spent the next hour reading and preparing/creating for the following day.  I FINALLY left the school a little before 4:30.  I had Kurtis with me and by the time we left it was snowing pretty hard.

We got on the freeway and it was practically white out conditions.  If you don't know what that is, it means that it was snowing so hard you can hardly see in front of you.  I'm slowing down along with everyone else letting off the gas and gently tapping the brakes.  If you've ever driven in snow, you know NOT to slam on the  brakes unless you want to spin out.  A tour bus in the other lane suddenly decides to start moving over into my lane to avoid another car on the shoulder.  So I have to slow down even more, next thing I know we are spinning out of control.  I start turning into the spin and then we start spinning in the complete opposite direction, so I turn the wheel the opposite direction, this continues happening and I can't seem to stop.  All the while Kurtis is freaking out in the back seat.  We finally stop sideways in the lane.  Thank goodness the person behind us stopped in time or we would have been t-boned.  I was able to correct the car just in time to come to a complete stop.

There was an accident and a fire truck was coming up behind me.  I'm in the left lane with really no where to go.  Well some space opens up in the right lane so I start moving over as much as possible.  Then no one else is moving and I start thinking, "These idiots need to move, don't they see the fire truck?!"  Well then I get a knock on my window.  There's a fireman standing there.  It turns out that I'M the idiot that needs to move.

I move the car and I start calling around to friends to let them know if they are in town, not to get on the freeway to come home.  I find out that the accident is not expected to be cleared until 6:30pm and it's only 4:50pm.  So we settle in to wait and I realize that I really have to pee!  There is no way to hop out and go in the bushes.  THERE ARE NO BUSHES!  There are also hundreds of cars that would get an unexpected show.  I considered opening my door and the passenger door and squatting between the doors, but I would still be so exposed and people were getting out of their cars to walk around.  If one of them saw me, that would be unbearable.  Kurtis then announces that he really needs to go.  Thank goodness I found an empty bottle.  He's releaved, but what about me?  With every minute that passes, the urge grows stronger.  Well 6:30 comes and goes and we still aren't moving anywhere.  I'm getting desperate here.  Then I spot my only hope.  The tupperware container that held my chili that I had eaten for lunch that day and half a kleenex.  Needless to say, I felt better and that tupperware was thrown away NEVER to be used again.

We finally start moving again at 7:30pm and we got home at 8pm.  Thank goodness we stayed safe, but I needed something sweet to calm the nerves after dinner.  I resisted ice cream at McDonalds and ate a piece of raw chocolate pudding pie instead.  It was just as satisfying without the "hang over".  Whew!  Crisis over!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Day 20

Tuesday March 9, 2010

Well we are having a late start to school today because of snow, so I have some time before I go teach today.  Yesterday was a good day.  I made some AMAZING banana bread and the most INCREDIBLE chocolate pudding pie!  They both turned out sooooooo gooooooood!  Both were sugar free(I used agave nectar, mmmmm!).  I posted both recipes on the recipe page of this blog.  I am really starting to feel good now and my cravings for sugar are virtually non-existent.  Ah, progress.  I am hoping I can keep this up when I go to my mom's next week.  We'll see.

I forgot to finish telling about the second grader I mentioned in my last post.  He is a VERY smart kid.  He is in second grade, but does 4th grade work.  Why they don't bump him up a grade, I don't know.  He tends to be a trouble maker, mainly because he's bored.  Well I was subbing in his class and the class had a student teacher, so my role was more of an aide than a teacher.  This boy was having issues during one of our activities, so I "invited" him to come to the back table where I was and work with me.  While we worked he started talking about the major disasters in Haiti and Chile.  He said that our armies should be there helping those people.  I said something to the effect that most of our military were in Iraq and Afghanistan right now.  He said, "I know.  They're fighting the Taliban."  Then he said, "I don't understand why our allies think they shouldn't be helping over there.  I know that we are number one and everything, but they should still help."  Like I said, a very intelligent boy!  If I had asked my second grade son what he thought about our military's actions and our allies, I would have gotten a blank stare, or at the most a "huh?", followed by, "Can I go play video games?".  After talking with him I realized that sometimes it is the simplest view that makes the most sense.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Day 16

Friday March 5, 2010

Well I finished off a busy week of subbing.  I'm not feeling all that great because I cannot seem to eat a "pure" diet without flour, wheat and processed food.  I did not have sugar today, but my day was not without flour.  It is the snack foods where I fail horribly.  I get so hungry that I grab some crackers and cheese.  However, I was just given about 12 HUGE zucchinis, so tomorrow I am getting out my dehydrator and making veggie chips.  Then I am going to juice a bunch of apples and use the pulp to make crackers.  I need some good snacks to keep the temptations of yucky stuff away.  My kids love them too!  Hopefully I will wake up without a headache and energy to do all I want to tomorrow!  Curse you MS!  Til tomorrow.